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About Me Member Comment Addict Lollipop, Gingerkid, Doodle-BearFemale/United States Recent Activity Deviant for 1 Year
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Why can't i live "My Life"?

Fri Nov 20, 2009, 7:40 AM
  • Mood: Gloomy
  • Listening to: "Heartbreak Hotel"-Whitney H.
  • Reading: My Friends' Pages
  • Watching: the time fly by slowly
  • Playing: On The Internet, As Usual
  • Eating: nothing
  • Drinking: nothing
I have had more drama this year (senior) than i have any other year. It sux. I've had so many so called "best friends" stab me in the back and lie to my face. I've had problems with family thinkin' that i'll never amount to anything. It's not fair and I'm sick of it. If people don't want to be my friends anymore, then they should just say so. It'll hurt, but i rather not be lied to. And as far as family goes. I am going to amount to something. But I'm going to set my own standards. College was a hard decision, but I decided to hold off. College was never a real dream of mine. I just want to be happy with myself. I finally understand how my friend feels trying to please everybody else all the time. I really want things to change. I never asked for much. I don't care if my life isn't perfect, but a little happiness would be nice. My whole life people have let me down, and I still tried to make them proud of me. But no matter what I do, it's never good enough for anybody. I'll admit that I make a lot of mistakes and I don't exactly always do the right thing, but it's my life and if i never mess up then i'll never no how it feels to finally get something right. Lately, I can't do anything right. But at least I'm trying. And I want to thank all my "REAL FRIENDS", who are always here 4 me. Idk what i would do without all of you.

My Real Friends
:iconlatin-qt-pie::iconshadarone::iconanime-babygirl16::iconbuterfingers::iconnur-ad-din::iconsenior-2010:

As 4 the other: ~Shadarone :iconshadarone:
:wave:He is an awsome writer:headbang:. He is my BFF and my RFL. Idk, what I would do without him. He is amazingly creative and can express what he feels through his work very well. Everyone please check out his page and tell all your friends. It is totally worth reading. I think you will enjoy reading his work as much as I do.:bow:

Loves (^o^) xoxo:kiss:
~Lollipop A.K.A. Gingerkid~

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